The Midwest Loch Ness

First real post after all those twitter posts... I figured I'd link my twitter to LJ to provide people with some evidence I'm still alive! Is it working? Is it annoying?

Heh, anyway...

Livejournal, you are so good to me! I keep coming back to you when I need to write something else but it's not coming out at all. Here's hoping a little journal therapy will help out this time as well.

This time, it's a 10-page paper about St. Augustine of Hippo. Yeah, I know. He's AMAZING!!! But I just can't seem to distill all the reading I've done for the past month into the right words. Most of the paper is actually supposed to consist of actual theology I'm learning from reading Confessions... and that is the hardest part. I have been learning... little inklings here and there. But it's so hard to keep things in my mind without also connecting them to 20 other things that are similar. For instance, I keep mixing up Augustine and C.S. Lewis (That's what I get for taking History of Christian Spiritual Formation at the same time as the C.S. Lewis class - they're even back-to-back on Thursdays!) in my mind... so I don't quite remember who said what and why it goes along with his particular theology/background. *sigh* Partly it's because Augustine still influences SO MUCH of our thought today, and I see those influences more and more in what Lewis writes, especially in Mere Christianity, which we just finished this week.

I kinda wish I'd picked City of God to read instead, because it would have been less spread-out... but it's much too late for that.

Wow, last entry before the big 100!!!

..and my mind went blank.
I need to stop doing this! it's so annoying.. and yet:

INTP
INTPs lack follow-through and this can isolate their ideas from practical examination. Their notions become over-intellectualized and too abstract to be of practical benefit. With their sharp critical thinking and analytical abilities, INTPs tend to nit-pick, hair-split, and generally overdo simple issues. Their desire for accuracy and precision exacerbates any error they may perceive in themselves or in others - they are, in other words, highly self-critical. Wanting to be competent and know everything, their standards grow increasingly higher. When fear of failing becomes overly pronounced, INTPs are quick to feel unintelligent, slow, and powerless.

If stress continues, the INTP's mind seems to freeze and block out the vital information it has worked so hard to accumulate. Their creative juices stop flowing and they suffer from stage fright,writers block, and a general inhibition of their ingenious thinking and fluent language skills. Preoccupied with performance failure, INTPs become self-consciously distracted in anticipation of their failure. If the stress becomes too overwhelming, the fear of blanking out prevents them from taking risks in areas they desire tosucceed in. Attempting to avoid incompetence, they fail to gain the expertise and mastery they so desperately need.
*sigh*

well.. lets all just be thankful for freedom of speech.. even if I'm unable to participate ;-)